For how long?

I've never known myself as someone with endless patience....until I met this person, but It took me years to realize it. I thought I was just giving him another chance....I thought I just demanded too much....I thought he loves me....I thought he didn't mean to hurt me... yeah I guess I think so much....or expect too much.....not because I've known him long enough, it would not mean he is not capable to do things that really would hurt me so much.... Now I'm hurting because all those years I've spent with him, I realized he only changes for worst.....for how long will I take a person who only listen to things he only wants to hear? For how long will I take him when he never knows what's inside of me?and when I initiate to talk about it he refused.....For how long will I make a fool of myself.? for how long will I resent his unfair treatment to me....? For how long will I hate him but too coward to show him....How come I run out of striking passages to make him realize how unfair he is... and selfish too...I don't want to reach the point of hating him to the point of almost cursing him.....for how long will I take him......I want to forget him.....but one thing is sure..someday you'll cry too because of me....

can't blog tomorrow

well it's only thursday today, and I'll do my friday blogday in advance because tomorrow is a holiday Feb 25. EDSA Revolution...but obviously i'm overtime, helping mark to fax all those memo to all gov't agencies....yeah i will have a long weekend but I'll work to death on monday....need to follow up those that I faxed, and gee I need to make an attendance, meeting is on wednesday, Mark will be on a meeting on monday,no ones going to assist me.. and my boss, she's expecting me to finish the list of updated contact numbers of all Presidential Action Officers....andami kong backlog.....this is really a prosperous new year ha...I'm not complaining....at least I'm useful....need to fix my things I'm going home na and my shuttle service is waiting..

My busy blogday friday

can't really blog today such a busy day and it's almost night, i'm preparing to go home

Post Valentine Comment (in fairness)

well It was not really a sad valentine at all, at the end of the day, I recieved a valentine card from someone. Obviously he is not so comfortable in giving cards and write some mushy thing on it....so opposite of my persona..but in a way it's ok....i guess it's the best valentine ever, no celebration but we were together on our way home....

My Valentine's Day Episode

Valentines day always come to my life like a wind. it just passed me by...but with or without a special someone, my previous valentines were all memorable and special...My 2005 valentine is equally memorable, but it is sad...I am not sad for the reason that I'm still unattached. I am sad because I know I am not really that unattached. But the person I'm attached with has somehow lost all his remaining romance in the world...can't even write me a note, can't even spend a hundred peso or even less, and it's almost 9:30am, is it asking too much if he would just call and greet me? really am wasting my time....

Pre Valentines' day Blogday Friday special

Just last Friday I am in a different mood, at least now I'm ok.... Gosh I'm having a hard time losing weight....I'm not so eager to exercise. Am I really getting old? so valentines day is nearing so what's new...unattached as usual....si Peso pa rin ang valentino ko. no regrets, I love him naman eh...

Friday Blogday, My first for the month of Feb

How about a sad start for the month of February....really hate myself for allowing him to make me feel like this....you'll have your day boy!...someday you're going to pay for this!