First time to be hospitalized

While writing this I am preparing to be hospitalized, for the past months I've noticed that 13 days or more after my last mens or two weeks before mens, spotting occured. it was not the kind of bleeding that will make you panic, but the type that is now you see it now you don't until actual menstruation arrived. but it is always consistent that after the period, I am blood free for 13 to 15 days, but just this month, nine days after last menstruation, blood came out, not spotting but blood...over night it just filled the small sanitary napkins but the following day it was gone again... so I went to OBgyne, and I was advised to have ultrasound... Ultrasound said no Myoma or cyst but there is thickening of endocrimentium. the scary part is the word Hyperplasia. My doc said D and C must be done and though a lot of people or even my doctor said it was a simple procedure and I don't need to stay overnight.. still I m feeling anxious...the part that what will be collected from me will be checked to rule out cancer is scaring me..... To those who can read this please help me pray that this won't lead to something serious...thanks.

Makes me feel I am falling in love

It's all over the net, the SEGA sickness... they call themselves as Shippers of this popular couple who mesmerized a lot of fans in their role in the Korean Drama "Secret Garden". I m not yet a member of any group but I've got all the symptoms of this SEGA sickness... I love Ha Ji Won and Hyun Bin, their chemistry is overflowing... I always used these words "Magical with Lingering effects" when the effect of the drama seemed lasting and fans just can't get enough.

I just found myself falling in love with the two....joining forums that talked about the two of them, and all are wishing that they are secretly dating now that Secret Garden is all over. Hyun bin is now under Military Service while Ha Ji Won is busy with the showing of her Sector 7 and her endorsements etc.

Is this crazy, I am inspired because of them... or again this is the softer side of me, getting mushy over this love story? but you see I am not a Love story fanatic, I guess SEGA is really just one of a kind, and the portrayal of actors and actresses are just perfect....

For how long will I feel like I really don't know, but I guess there is nothing wrong enjoying something like this, as long as I know I am still normal and I don't do things to harm my fellowmen , LOL I guess I am still ok... and it is always OK to admire... Just use the admiration positively..

when to know when working is no longer healthy

I cannot beat the deadline, I guess it's impossible. I am doing my best effort but some things are beyond my control. Bosses are making me feel like it will be my fault if they fail.... looks like the problem created by others are my problems now...and poor me thinks that because I don't have the choice among all of us, I should be the one to deal with it..... I am already palpitating, I am doing what I can do but it seems not enough at all....

sometime it's not the job but the people you work with.... they can only see the time when you are resting, but not the time you are overworking yourself..

God, can you do something on this? please lead me the way, if this is the time for me to lost my job please help me find a better one... I have a big financial needs and I can't afford to lose a job for now.... please help me....

Thank you strangers

Although my page views increased slowly, still I am thankful, strangers still stopped and took time to read. I thank you all for reading my Life at glance which I failed to update as actively as I used to. Well from now on, I will try my best to write here as often as I can. I would like this to be the record of my personal feelings That will neutralize my writing. I want to maintain my old way of writing, no matter how emotional it can get. I started writing that way..and as my writing subjects became broader and broader every day, I sometime miss my emotional articles.

Or will this mean, it's been years since that most passionate feeling, and giving my all, made me feel fulfilled emotionally, that missing the feeling is either not a priority or there is no one to think about... or getting old is making me more practical....that I write with less woman affection... am I missing that soft side of me...

Hope to see you again readers, I will consider this as my writing outlet... different from my writing for a Magazine, different from my hubs or stories from the other site...

2011 my "be careful year"

2011 is a year of the Rabbit, and as someone born under the Year of the rooster, it means that I can never be sure of a good year because Rabbit and Rooster never get along very well in this Chinese Calendar.

So I am more prayerful this year for I will be needing our Lord more than ever. He is the only one who knows my destiny and I am leaving it all up to him.

My year of the Rabbit 12 years ago was not nice, but I know very well why.. I am hoping I will have a better year of the Rabbit this year. Above all I am praying for good health among my family or love ones and of course good health for Peso and PM. May I never short of resources this year so I can always update their vaccinations.

I know this year too will be a challenging year for my writing career, and I hope increase my earning this year thru this passion of mine... this is one of my greatest dreams, to make it big in my writing though I have no idea yet as to how big..

Pissie Marie or PM

I just want to introduce my baby girl PM....

Missing Pissy

Sometimes I found myself missing my other female dog Pissy. Trully my little girl is irreplaceable in spite of the presence of another female do that I named after her, and is getting along well with Peso, Pissy or Piseta Danica is still different. Part of me is still guilty with my shortcomings to her. I have all my attention to Peso because I thought Peso's ailment is really something to worry about and Pissy had no sign of major illness then. When I sent her to a Vet Clinic to update her vaccination, I guess that's how my dog suddenly became sickly and did not survive at all.

I just don't want to talk about her ailment for she died without us knowing what was wrong with her. I brought her to the best vet clinics in town but they can't seem to answer what's ailing her...

Most of my friends assumed that maybe Pissy died because she felt she was loved less by me.... of course those are not true, I love my dog Pissy but I admit not to give so much time toher because I thought she was healthy so I gave my full attention to the one that I thought had serious health problem.

Pissy is an alpha dog, so much different from my female dog now. Pissy is like a human being with too much pride, with the "if you ignore me I will ignore you too" attitude. She always turned her back on me when I hugged Peso, she was not the type to insist herself to be hugged too. My new female dog is the exact opposite, she insisted to be hugged and competes with Peso obviously to get my attention.

I guess an alpha dog became a lonely dog when not given enough attention. and that's the lesson I learned. Even if I love Peso above all dogs, I should always treat dogs in my house with fairness and fair love. Because if not, what will be my difference with those who look at dog with complete descrimination.