Finally

I finally retrieved my blogger account.... I can say I really miss blogging, writing about things that really concerns me Personally.......I am just thinking if I will need to convert this blog as blog about my personal concerns and issue and leave my Dog talk and Peso talks to others..... but this is for now... I am really happy to be here again...

Updating...

Just last February 15 my article intended for Animal Scene Mag March issue was published by the Manila Bulletin Newspaper. The Managing editor found it fit to what the newspaper was looking for in time for Valentines day... I really thank Animal Scene and Manila Bulletin for this. To see my Article and Peso's name in a broadsheet is a new and priceless experience...




This is a light in times of darkness...Some odds may be against me but I know this is God's way of telling me he is just beside me...





This month of February also, My article about the Christmas Party of my former petwebsite was published.... Well in spite of the devastation that happened to me in that site, at least I have something to remind me of the beautiful times.... a feeling maybe is different from the time I started writing it to the feeling I had when it was published, but then again, it's still my article and I am proud of it...







This one is my real favorite....The January issue of Animal Scene.....



This time I wrote about Shihtzu breed and owners... this is my favorite because I coordinated with all nice people most of them from my real pet website. I never had a hard time talking to them, they are all so down to earth. I made a lot of people happy here..




Most of all this is a story about an ordinary dog's life adventure and how he always encountered shihtzu dogs and humans, and how these humans became my friends. People involved in this article made me feel more fulfilled than ever....



which made me forget those I failed to please for whatever reasons only them know,..



I wish it's already march so that I can talk of my new article right away... and move on... well I think I did.... I don't know why others can't?

An after Christmas Haircut

This maybe is weird to some but, I can’t help but associate long curly hair to sadness and badluck. So I decided to have a haircut again, to end grudges, fears, and anything negative…






Just this year I had two major haircuts because of significant events in my life.But before I tell my story let me post my latest pictures first… that one taken at Davids Salon Circle Mall

















Moving on, after almost a lifetime of avoiding my natural curl, because of some accident, I decided to maintain a longer curly hair for two years……





only to realize how hard my life looking back since the first month of 2008. I had a year of “PESO” centered life… My dog’s struggle with his perineal hernia became my struggle too…. I did not expect him to have 3 major operations in a year with just less than a month interval… I had a haircut after his 3rd surgery. and I can tell we had a smooth sailing life after that… Peso gained weight….

November 29 when i decided to give in to my friend’s persuasion to have my hair rebonded at her parlor





Hair instantly became longer. The woman who did the rebonding refused to cut my hair…. The following day, when I strolled with Peso, I noticed he was straining to urinate again…. and I know it’s sign that he needed another surgery…. Dec. 1, my dog undergone surgery again, his fourth…… Peso is okey now. His veterinarian said that his muscles are all completely repaired…Problems with Peso ended (with God’s help) But new thing came up… a few days before Christmas, I was told I am going to transfer to another unit…. not much of a bad news, coz before it happened I was already thinking of my job that kept me idle for 8 long years, and I know that former resentments prevented me to like the job, monitoring really bores me, or I just don’t progress anymore…. this development only solves the problem…. But behind that is a rejection from Others too… I have nothing to do with the strengthening or whatever they called it. The new head of my former office just can’t admit it directly that she didn’t like me as her admin staff…. but I can’t blame her.. What ever negative input that she got about me maybe came from my former bosses and officemates too… and I can’t argue about that…I am only one against how many of them, and life at PMS is like a number game… Majority wins… This is not the time to flaunt my strength…and I maybe a little too passive to just let them think of me negatively.. what can I do, I am aware how I lost my approachable image right after I left my other office, which up to now I consider the one that really brought out the “real” Maricel at work.

Now my self esteem is not yet high but it is getting there I know…. My replacement at my former office is obviously more prepared to transfer than I do and I know she felt much more better because she was chosen over me…. I saw myself in her years ago, when a boss requested me to become an admin too… but I know her story will be different….

First step to accepting my fate is to locate all computer chairs that are under my name and I just did it before the long vacation….. Another one is to have a haircut. Be Beautiful to set the difference.






That one was taken at Rustan’s Supermarket.

I just want to relax

I went out to think about myself and my career. I guess I just had my two emotional
issues and I need a break... Went to Riverbank to dine at Cafe Mina but to my dismay they have limited stocks already, they are moving out to SM Fairview in the near future.

I went to Figaro instead. And since I only saw a couple inside I decided to occupy a place which can accommodate more than six people.



I was sitting acrossed that couch on the picture....Instead of thinking of the unexpected change in my career, and how I tried to avoid my ex when he went to the office, I just took photos of myself, trying to capture the low neckline blouse that I wore.... but I guess I failed to get it.... I can't seem to focus on my cleavage hahaha but instead just almost a close up photos of me....



Am I faking my smile here? no just a little bit conscious. I know not everybody can understand how I enjoy my solitude...







But then I can't help but think of the sudden changed in my career... After 8 years in that unit, I will really need to adjust again in a different unit... though I am thankful I will be reunited with former officemates and friends, I am still fearful about things that can possibly affect my privacy, and mostly my priorities.





A brewed coffee to match my snack.



Half ham sandwich and half ordered pasta...







I like the ham sandwich.


About my ex who visited the office, I was told how pathetic he looks now, and I am not ready to see him yet... not that I am mad at him, but I don't think I can handle another emotional issue. I am not ready and I know eyes will be watching on us. But I am really very sad for him...and when I went home that day, there was a part of me that wanted to make me cry for reasons I cannot explain...



Then I took another photo of myself. I still want to look good, anyway changes may mean a new break for me....so please help me God...

Next Time I will bring my Peso here at Figaro.....Life will be happier then...

Where is Peso?

Peso is not lost... I am just missing my boy, because just this morning, he surprised me again with urine straining again.... Panic as usual.... if there is one thing I can't get use to is when Peso is having a day like this, and who can? difficulty urinating is a sign of hernial complication.... yes peso was put to surgery three times this year and on the first day of December he is scheduled for another surgery, sadly his fourth...

In-spite of using mal-functioned cellphones I was able to contact people who always help me when Peso's ailment strikes again... as usual Peso is crying again and restless, we brought him to Vets in practise in Mandaluyong at around 230pm...I was advised to leave Peso. and I did not argue, I guess they can handle Peso well when I am not around, and in general, dogs behave well in the clinic when their humans are not with them.




To give him temporarily relief, the veterinarian in charged at that time collected the trapped urine using a syringe. I was not around when they put muzzle on Peso and I was not around when they did a certain procedure.



I immediately miss Peso, this is the first time that I arrived home without Peso wagging his tail, and reaching out me as if he wanted to give me his welcome kiss..



I will miss to see him sleeping soundly...

I know this is sad.... having 4 surgeries in a year is not a good joke....I really pray that to God to have mercy on us and my dogs.... that I hope HE can see from up there that Peso and Pissy are my closest family... Hope our almighty give us more time to be together...and give us a chance to be happier and free from worries...

Peso's tail

Whenever I look at Peso's tail I can't help to recall what we have been through and how we survived it.... regardless of how weird his tail looks now, it is still a great joy to see it wagging almost endlessy. His tail obviously expresses that good feeling he is feeling now....that Peso is almost back to normal except for those furless portion of his lower body, but my goodlooking dog lives with it gracefully, those who never know us thought it's just a style... Peso's tail always reminds me of a legacy that I dreamed for my dog.... since puppy(hood) days, Peso already showed uniqueness which made me love him so much...so much that I wanted to make his life cycle different.... I want his stay in this lifetime very memorable not only to me but to other people as well.. and I didn't know that his ailment will lead us to that legacy... Try to check Peso dog at google and you will find information about him... Unconsciously I made a lot of information that will lead to Peso, Dogster, Youtube, United Dog and Worldwidefido.com where he won the cutest dog for July 2007. Indeed Peso's tail can tell a lot of tales, and even if his fur grows and make it look normal, Peso's tale will never end.... Super Peso lives... and Big sis will always be at his side...to write more stories about him...



One of Peso's latest video, sorry for the background (LOL)

Why??

Sometimes just when you thought that you have reached the age when you feel like no male can ever attract you again, after a long failed relationship, and after you became completely comfortable not thinking of a male (I mean human male,Peso is the only male that conquers my thoughts and feelings), then this person came, I met him only once and now I am still thinking of him....

The question is why do I need to see him only now, when it's definitely too late...? why do I need to meet him and can't see him again? but I am thankful that we have communication, no matter how it lacks affection, it's already fine with me... I guess when you know that to develop something sweet between you and a person you like is next to impossible, better appreciate that you met him and you made a mark on your first meeting,better content yourself to the fact that he knows you, and he knows your most cherish capability

I just want to believe I am hero-worshipping any one who had saved a love one's life... and Glad I've met him and he knows me.... I just hope my articles fascinate him too that way it fascinated other people....

I love you peso peso, you really brought me not only joy but really a lot of wonderful things in this lifetime