Thank you strangers

Although my page views increased slowly, still I am thankful, strangers still stopped and took time to read. I thank you all for reading my Life at glance which I failed to update as actively as I used to. Well from now on, I will try my best to write here as often as I can. I would like this to be the record of my personal feelings That will neutralize my writing. I want to maintain my old way of writing, no matter how emotional it can get. I started writing that way..and as my writing subjects became broader and broader every day, I sometime miss my emotional articles.

Or will this mean, it's been years since that most passionate feeling, and giving my all, made me feel fulfilled emotionally, that missing the feeling is either not a priority or there is no one to think about... or getting old is making me more practical....that I write with less woman affection... am I missing that soft side of me...

Hope to see you again readers, I will consider this as my writing outlet... different from my writing for a Magazine, different from my hubs or stories from the other site...

2011 my "be careful year"

2011 is a year of the Rabbit, and as someone born under the Year of the rooster, it means that I can never be sure of a good year because Rabbit and Rooster never get along very well in this Chinese Calendar.

So I am more prayerful this year for I will be needing our Lord more than ever. He is the only one who knows my destiny and I am leaving it all up to him.

My year of the Rabbit 12 years ago was not nice, but I know very well why.. I am hoping I will have a better year of the Rabbit this year. Above all I am praying for good health among my family or love ones and of course good health for Peso and PM. May I never short of resources this year so I can always update their vaccinations.

I know this year too will be a challenging year for my writing career, and I hope increase my earning this year thru this passion of mine... this is one of my greatest dreams, to make it big in my writing though I have no idea yet as to how big..

Pissie Marie or PM

I just want to introduce my baby girl PM....

Missing Pissy

Sometimes I found myself missing my other female dog Pissy. Trully my little girl is irreplaceable in spite of the presence of another female do that I named after her, and is getting along well with Peso, Pissy or Piseta Danica is still different. Part of me is still guilty with my shortcomings to her. I have all my attention to Peso because I thought Peso's ailment is really something to worry about and Pissy had no sign of major illness then. When I sent her to a Vet Clinic to update her vaccination, I guess that's how my dog suddenly became sickly and did not survive at all.

I just don't want to talk about her ailment for she died without us knowing what was wrong with her. I brought her to the best vet clinics in town but they can't seem to answer what's ailing her...

Most of my friends assumed that maybe Pissy died because she felt she was loved less by me.... of course those are not true, I love my dog Pissy but I admit not to give so much time toher because I thought she was healthy so I gave my full attention to the one that I thought had serious health problem.

Pissy is an alpha dog, so much different from my female dog now. Pissy is like a human being with too much pride, with the "if you ignore me I will ignore you too" attitude. She always turned her back on me when I hugged Peso, she was not the type to insist herself to be hugged too. My new female dog is the exact opposite, she insisted to be hugged and competes with Peso obviously to get my attention.

I guess an alpha dog became a lonely dog when not given enough attention. and that's the lesson I learned. Even if I love Peso above all dogs, I should always treat dogs in my house with fairness and fair love. Because if not, what will be my difference with those who look at dog with complete descrimination.

I hope I won't forget my password this time

wow finally again for the second time... I miss my life at a glance, I don't think I can just give up on this because it is only here I can express my personal feeling.. flexibility in writing is keeping me set a side the emotional part of me.. anyway hope to have more quality post in the future..

Queen Seon Dok

The teleserye that I strictly follow at GMA 7 everynight, somebody sent me a dvd copy and I tried to watch it while putting medicine to my allergies... Anyway, I guess the supposed love story of deokman and Yu sin really hit me.. I don't know why, the usual loving in each other but can't go on with the relationship because of priorities....well does it unconsciously reminded me of former episodes of my life when I used to say that love and priorities are two different things but must be together in building up of a relationship... the absence of one can be very painful...

Queen Seon dok is really good... I like the actors and actresses... Especially the one playing Deokman..

Finally

I finally retrieved my blogger account.... I can say I really miss blogging, writing about things that really concerns me Personally.......I am just thinking if I will need to convert this blog as blog about my personal concerns and issue and leave my Dog talk and Peso talks to others..... but this is for now... I am really happy to be here again...

Updating...

Just last February 15 my article intended for Animal Scene Mag March issue was published by the Manila Bulletin Newspaper. The Managing editor found it fit to what the newspaper was looking for in time for Valentines day... I really thank Animal Scene and Manila Bulletin for this. To see my Article and Peso's name in a broadsheet is a new and priceless experience...




This is a light in times of darkness...Some odds may be against me but I know this is God's way of telling me he is just beside me...





This month of February also, My article about the Christmas Party of my former petwebsite was published.... Well in spite of the devastation that happened to me in that site, at least I have something to remind me of the beautiful times.... a feeling maybe is different from the time I started writing it to the feeling I had when it was published, but then again, it's still my article and I am proud of it...







This one is my real favorite....The January issue of Animal Scene.....



This time I wrote about Shihtzu breed and owners... this is my favorite because I coordinated with all nice people most of them from my real pet website. I never had a hard time talking to them, they are all so down to earth. I made a lot of people happy here..




Most of all this is a story about an ordinary dog's life adventure and how he always encountered shihtzu dogs and humans, and how these humans became my friends. People involved in this article made me feel more fulfilled than ever....



which made me forget those I failed to please for whatever reasons only them know,..



I wish it's already march so that I can talk of my new article right away... and move on... well I think I did.... I don't know why others can't?

An after Christmas Haircut

This maybe is weird to some but, I can’t help but associate long curly hair to sadness and badluck. So I decided to have a haircut again, to end grudges, fears, and anything negative…






Just this year I had two major haircuts because of significant events in my life.But before I tell my story let me post my latest pictures first… that one taken at Davids Salon Circle Mall

















Moving on, after almost a lifetime of avoiding my natural curl, because of some accident, I decided to maintain a longer curly hair for two years……





only to realize how hard my life looking back since the first month of 2008. I had a year of “PESO” centered life… My dog’s struggle with his perineal hernia became my struggle too…. I did not expect him to have 3 major operations in a year with just less than a month interval… I had a haircut after his 3rd surgery. and I can tell we had a smooth sailing life after that… Peso gained weight….

November 29 when i decided to give in to my friend’s persuasion to have my hair rebonded at her parlor





Hair instantly became longer. The woman who did the rebonding refused to cut my hair…. The following day, when I strolled with Peso, I noticed he was straining to urinate again…. and I know it’s sign that he needed another surgery…. Dec. 1, my dog undergone surgery again, his fourth…… Peso is okey now. His veterinarian said that his muscles are all completely repaired…Problems with Peso ended (with God’s help) But new thing came up… a few days before Christmas, I was told I am going to transfer to another unit…. not much of a bad news, coz before it happened I was already thinking of my job that kept me idle for 8 long years, and I know that former resentments prevented me to like the job, monitoring really bores me, or I just don’t progress anymore…. this development only solves the problem…. But behind that is a rejection from Others too… I have nothing to do with the strengthening or whatever they called it. The new head of my former office just can’t admit it directly that she didn’t like me as her admin staff…. but I can’t blame her.. What ever negative input that she got about me maybe came from my former bosses and officemates too… and I can’t argue about that…I am only one against how many of them, and life at PMS is like a number game… Majority wins… This is not the time to flaunt my strength…and I maybe a little too passive to just let them think of me negatively.. what can I do, I am aware how I lost my approachable image right after I left my other office, which up to now I consider the one that really brought out the “real” Maricel at work.

Now my self esteem is not yet high but it is getting there I know…. My replacement at my former office is obviously more prepared to transfer than I do and I know she felt much more better because she was chosen over me…. I saw myself in her years ago, when a boss requested me to become an admin too… but I know her story will be different….

First step to accepting my fate is to locate all computer chairs that are under my name and I just did it before the long vacation….. Another one is to have a haircut. Be Beautiful to set the difference.






That one was taken at Rustan’s Supermarket.

I just want to relax

I went out to think about myself and my career. I guess I just had my two emotional
issues and I need a break... Went to Riverbank to dine at Cafe Mina but to my dismay they have limited stocks already, they are moving out to SM Fairview in the near future.

I went to Figaro instead. And since I only saw a couple inside I decided to occupy a place which can accommodate more than six people.



I was sitting acrossed that couch on the picture....Instead of thinking of the unexpected change in my career, and how I tried to avoid my ex when he went to the office, I just took photos of myself, trying to capture the low neckline blouse that I wore.... but I guess I failed to get it.... I can't seem to focus on my cleavage hahaha but instead just almost a close up photos of me....



Am I faking my smile here? no just a little bit conscious. I know not everybody can understand how I enjoy my solitude...







But then I can't help but think of the sudden changed in my career... After 8 years in that unit, I will really need to adjust again in a different unit... though I am thankful I will be reunited with former officemates and friends, I am still fearful about things that can possibly affect my privacy, and mostly my priorities.





A brewed coffee to match my snack.



Half ham sandwich and half ordered pasta...







I like the ham sandwich.


About my ex who visited the office, I was told how pathetic he looks now, and I am not ready to see him yet... not that I am mad at him, but I don't think I can handle another emotional issue. I am not ready and I know eyes will be watching on us. But I am really very sad for him...and when I went home that day, there was a part of me that wanted to make me cry for reasons I cannot explain...



Then I took another photo of myself. I still want to look good, anyway changes may mean a new break for me....so please help me God...

Next Time I will bring my Peso here at Figaro.....Life will be happier then...

Where is Peso?

Peso is not lost... I am just missing my boy, because just this morning, he surprised me again with urine straining again.... Panic as usual.... if there is one thing I can't get use to is when Peso is having a day like this, and who can? difficulty urinating is a sign of hernial complication.... yes peso was put to surgery three times this year and on the first day of December he is scheduled for another surgery, sadly his fourth...

In-spite of using mal-functioned cellphones I was able to contact people who always help me when Peso's ailment strikes again... as usual Peso is crying again and restless, we brought him to Vets in practise in Mandaluyong at around 230pm...I was advised to leave Peso. and I did not argue, I guess they can handle Peso well when I am not around, and in general, dogs behave well in the clinic when their humans are not with them.




To give him temporarily relief, the veterinarian in charged at that time collected the trapped urine using a syringe. I was not around when they put muzzle on Peso and I was not around when they did a certain procedure.



I immediately miss Peso, this is the first time that I arrived home without Peso wagging his tail, and reaching out me as if he wanted to give me his welcome kiss..



I will miss to see him sleeping soundly...

I know this is sad.... having 4 surgeries in a year is not a good joke....I really pray that to God to have mercy on us and my dogs.... that I hope HE can see from up there that Peso and Pissy are my closest family... Hope our almighty give us more time to be together...and give us a chance to be happier and free from worries...

Peso's tail

Whenever I look at Peso's tail I can't help to recall what we have been through and how we survived it.... regardless of how weird his tail looks now, it is still a great joy to see it wagging almost endlessy. His tail obviously expresses that good feeling he is feeling now....that Peso is almost back to normal except for those furless portion of his lower body, but my goodlooking dog lives with it gracefully, those who never know us thought it's just a style... Peso's tail always reminds me of a legacy that I dreamed for my dog.... since puppy(hood) days, Peso already showed uniqueness which made me love him so much...so much that I wanted to make his life cycle different.... I want his stay in this lifetime very memorable not only to me but to other people as well.. and I didn't know that his ailment will lead us to that legacy... Try to check Peso dog at google and you will find information about him... Unconsciously I made a lot of information that will lead to Peso, Dogster, Youtube, United Dog and Worldwidefido.com where he won the cutest dog for July 2007. Indeed Peso's tail can tell a lot of tales, and even if his fur grows and make it look normal, Peso's tale will never end.... Super Peso lives... and Big sis will always be at his side...to write more stories about him...



One of Peso's latest video, sorry for the background (LOL)

Why??

Sometimes just when you thought that you have reached the age when you feel like no male can ever attract you again, after a long failed relationship, and after you became completely comfortable not thinking of a male (I mean human male,Peso is the only male that conquers my thoughts and feelings), then this person came, I met him only once and now I am still thinking of him....

The question is why do I need to see him only now, when it's definitely too late...? why do I need to meet him and can't see him again? but I am thankful that we have communication, no matter how it lacks affection, it's already fine with me... I guess when you know that to develop something sweet between you and a person you like is next to impossible, better appreciate that you met him and you made a mark on your first meeting,better content yourself to the fact that he knows you, and he knows your most cherish capability

I just want to believe I am hero-worshipping any one who had saved a love one's life... and Glad I've met him and he knows me.... I just hope my articles fascinate him too that way it fascinated other people....

I love you peso peso, you really brought me not only joy but really a lot of wonderful things in this lifetime

Our Hands

I have so many backBLOGS, BECAUSE there are things I need to publish first like, this one.... my hand and peso's hand... I am holding it tight to make him feel like I will never leave him... and I know he knows it.... after all that we've been through and what we have encountered together. There is no way that I am going to give up on him. And I know he fought hard for his life because of his love for me, His veterinarians admired him to his strong fighting spirit to live... God knows I love this dog so much, and everybody who knows me knew it.... Peso has always been a good partner.... When my mom was still alive and very sick, something about Peso is making me feel like I have someone I can rely on.... He is like a guardian angel that Our Lord sent me to give me joy in times of pain, and a flicker of light in times of darkness... Peso's ailment brings out a lot of passion in me....that without my intention, I was able to capture my readers heart, met a lot of good people, and changed the way I look at life....My dog has brought me a lot of good aura.... Now that he is sick and recovering, I'll do everything to make him feel better.... some people do not understand me, but I don't mind.... this is my life and they are not the one living with a dog I called 'MY PESO"

Mona gave this to me and I am flattered and happy. A real writer is reading my blog and that's really an honor.... Thanks Euthymic keep in touch always and teach me to write well okey....

My Birthday for the year 2008

Yesterday September 10, was my birthday. No Celebration, no extravagant food, no new clothes...but very very meaningful.... God's gift to me is extension of Peso's life, I will discuss the drama in a different post but for now I want to share what I did on my birthday....

Fed Pissy her BarkBars, a chocolate for dog treats, given by Tita Susan, a friend I met from a dog website, she's based in Australia. That was 3AM...

Arrozcaldo from one fastfood chain,actually I bought it for Peso,but I realized it's too salty for him, but I can't eat it either, not so fond of arrozcaldo with too much garlic, I will not tell how this porridge ended.

Coffee is always better....

Both Cellphones were busy....but then it didn't stop me to take photo of my sick dog....



Time to cook the rice now









Preparing to boil malunggay leaves to be included in dogs' diet.... I cooked malunggay omellet for Peso's diet,sorry forgot to take photos.




Fried Chicken for me or for us.




Finally a haircut.... after a year...




and a manicure,after so many months..



Then I proceeded to this place to buy my favorite sandwich..



Well that's my last destination,but before that I went to church.... so guilty that it was already closed when I arrived..... but I still prayed and thank the Lord for his gift....